Nebula 

Artist statement: 

My craftsmanship has its origins in crafts since I was a child.
When I was a child, I was a child who made copies of the transformation items of heroes that appeared in special effects programs on TV, dressed up and played alone.
I've always liked making things with ingenuity, and I've always been good at it. However, I had major setbacks and failures in junior high school and high school, and I spent my student days in which I was not confident in myself. I wasn't very good at studying, and I was rather bad at exercising.
I couldn't do the same thing that many people could do.
Under such circumstances, I thought that if I continued without looking away from the path of manufacturing that I thought I was good at, I would be able to rebuild myself that was about to collapse.

I started paying attention to paintings when I was in high school because I learned about the works of (Taro Okamoto) and (Salvador Dalí). The way I thought about painting changed greatly when I learned about the works of these two artists. For the first time, I felt for the first time the possibility of expression in a work that seemed to give shape to the creation in their heads as it was without replacing it with anything, which was different from the three-dimensional modeling that I had been doing until then.
After entering a modeling vocational school, I thought about exploring three-dimensional modeling, which requires objectivity and precise skills, and painting, which allows me to obediently follow creativity and intuition, both at work and in my private life, and after graduating, I decided to walk on two pairs of sandals.

Both are about expressing something with your hands, and I thought both were necessary for me, so I didn't think about narrowing them down to one.
At the same time as starting to work in moulding, he also taught himself painting.
The theme of my paintings has always been a self-portrait. No matter what the motif is, what I want to draw in the end is,

A solid figure of yourself. Your own creation, not leaning on anyone's creation. There were days when I could only create something highly abstract, or more specifically, only abstract, but through repeated trial and error with the sole intention of seeing a clear form of myself,

Rather than separating the technology, objectivity, and knowledge of materials that I had accumulated through my work, and the intuitive abstract painting production that I had accumulated in my own way, I wanted to fuse it.
Even now, I can't draw like an academic painting, but I chose the medium based on the senses I grasped at work, pursued the texture of a flat surface called "painting" by doing so, and used the method of expressing emotions using monuments that I discovered in the pursuit of abstract painting. By mixing and expressing what has gradually become possible to draw through the accumulation of experience and study, it is finally becoming possible to draw works as "self-portraits" with clear images.
I feel that if my current work reflects more strongly the feelings I had as a child when I was just making things I liked, my works will be more supportive of me.
For this reason, the pursuit of further texture (presence as matter), reflection of one's current mental image, and the origin of childhood interests are now the propositions of my work.